I had the joy of corresponding with someone new this week. He emailed me via my website and we discussed pain. Real pain. Reaches-into-your-core-and-lays-everything-out-on-the-table kind of pain. Pain that leaves you choosing which cards to pick up. And which to leave laying face down.
Our correspondence made me begin to think about the ways that suffering from pain, like the loss of a loved one, can feel similar to suffering from pain after trauma — the loss of ones’ self.
And about how many of you might find yourselves experiencing pain in a way you never have before. In a way that challenges your faith. In life. In love. In yourselves.
In a way that you’ve never felt before. Your pain might be affecting your body. Your appetite. Your nervous system. Making what you are experiencing similar to what most people experience after having suffered a trauma.
Pain, Trauma and the Nervous System
While healing from trauma, I’ve been learning about my nervous system, and I am able to pick up on the signs of when it’s regulated and when it’s not.
Here is what comes up the most when my nervous system is unregulated:
- I dwell on/stay stuck on the past
- I dwell on/stay stuck on the future
- I try to control everything that myself and those around me do
- My body tightens up and I become stiff, tense
- My thinking becomes scattered and/or I start saying the wrong words
- My motor skills start to worsen, and I become clumsy
- I am unable to follow a routine/feel antsy while trying to complete tasks
- My mind races or I’m dull, bored and uninspired
- I feel like I have to move a lot or like I can’t move at all
- I overeat or undereat, unable to tell when I’m nourished
- I feel I can only eat plain or bland foods
- I either oversleep or can’t sleep more than a few hours
- I am easily startled by sudden, loud noises
- Strong smells make me feel sick
- Too much movement makes me feel dizzy
- I become easily overwhelmed
And I find I am quick to:
- Have a fight-or-flight response
- Fawn (give others what they want while putting my needs aside)
- Have panic attacks
- Have meltdowns
- Have suicidal thoughts
Practicing Self-care and Creating a Self-care Routine
I’ve found that in order to help myself when my nervous system is unregulated, I have to practice self-care. For me, that means having a sensory diet and practicing mindfulness. To help me regulate my nervous system. To help me feel safe in my environment and in my body. To help me have hope.
We all need self-care. And that looks different for each of us. For some it might mean doing yoga. For others, cooking or biking. Knitting or coloring. And for some of us, it means getting out of bed. Showering. Taking each day one thing at a time. One day at a time. For when you’re suffering from pain or if you’ve suffered a trauma, sometimes one thing at a time is all you can do.
Practicing self-care also means doing the things that bring us joy. Ending things that don’t. Releasing. Letting go. Surrendering. Even (or arguably, Especially) when you’re suffering. When you have to fight even harder to see the light. Because that just means it’ll shine that much brighter when you find it.
So to help you get started, here are five steps to help you create a self-care routine (that will help regulate your nervous system too):
- Brainstorm for a minute or two.
- Make a list of all the things that you do for self-care.
Step #2: Ask yourself (and modify your list if necessary):
- What does my self-care look like?
- How often do I practice it?
- What do I notice when I let my needs go for too long?
Step #3: Categorize each thing you do for self-care as:
- How you move, nourish and rest to nurture your body.
- How you learn, relax and stay curious to nurture your mind.
- How you are creative, giving and playful to nurture your soul.
Step #4: Make a promise to yourself that you will do one thing from each category at least once a day.
- Once you master that, add one more thing from each category.
- Then add another.
- And so on.
Step #5: Reflect on your self-care list at least once a month and change things that no longer serve you; add things that do. Consider:
- How you can be kinder to yourself. More forgiving. More loving.
- How you can take the opportunity to grow when you are unhappy.
- How you can take your self-love and use it to help others.
To all of you suffering, I wish you light and love on your journey to heal.